Essay No. 2 - November 17th

The girl to my right represents everything about North Jersey that I hate. She thinks that she's so much more sophisticated, more beautiful and more important that she actually is. In reality, she's not all that pretty, she has no class nor the importance that she believes that she possesses. But, those that live here in Greenwood are trained to see her as the perfect girl. She's almost like the "ideal Greenwood girl". She wears cute, fashionable clothes, like Citizen of Humanity jeans [I actually think that Citizens are great jeans], cute sweaters. She's not very smart, nor is she stupid. Just average. She likes to gossip, and thinks that she's the center of the world. Once, our teacher asked us "What are you going to do when you have a boss that you don't get along with?" In her "I'm a princess" mentality, muttered to her friends "Quit". This kind of mentality is destroying our society.

I talked to my mom this morning about the magnitude of my feelings, but only because she as talking about how much she disliked Greenwood first. I told her that the night before I had perversely considered hurting myself, and that I had actually punched the wall in my shower in an attempt to distract myself with physical pain. She told my dad, who called me during my free period at school. He basically told me to take one day at a time and "soldier on", and I don't know if I can.